wrote another set of lyrics... haha... the title for this is: 彩虹 . 泪

仿佛下了一场雨，
我的心，有泪的痕迹。
微笑背后的情绪，
或许你也不会注意。

天边出现了彩虹，
另一端，却只有哭泣。
雨后的晴朗天空，
却不是我们的结局。

分手那天，天空灰了，
暴风雨瞬间来临。
而我在落下的泪里，
看见你转身离去。

彩虹的七彩，
如今只有灰灰的白。
你带着我们的爱，
告别了说好的未来。

彩虹的七彩，
如今已是一片的白。
我也只能忍痛say bye，
让你去寻找你要的幸福
色彩。

after a long long break... im finally back... shall use this blog entry to kind of summarize my whole life in dec... haha... during which quite a lot of things really happened... oh... first things first... announcin to all tt i hav gotten a job at the synod... doing some admin n translation stuff... n im startin work tml... this is the first time i actually start full-time work... haha... so exciting... :)... pay is reasonable lah... tho not really on the high-end side... but den again... work now is abt experience, not really abt the pay... *wah... sounds so mature leh*...
oh... n i juz went to taiwan recently... wif my family n cousins... total 14 pple... enjoyed my time wif my cousins... it was really fun goin shoppin wif them... partying every single nite in one of our hotel rms... n lots more... but the whole trip was quite erm... hasty ba... cos it was like everyday waking up at 6.20am n havin to move off at 8am... den wld take a few hrs bus journey (avg abt 4 to 5 hrs at least everyday ba) to travel frm one province to another... so its quite a feat tt we completed a round of taiwan frm north to south n back to north again... but i tink the nxt time if i go again... i wld probably stay in one area can liao... too many areas far too tiring... n u cant do much except sit on the bus n look at the scenery... :)...
den immediately after i came back to s'pore... we put up our very own church musical... n it was really a great success!!! standing on the stage, i cld see the audience streaming in... n filling up the entire sanctuary... so much so tt chairs had to be laid out to accommodate those who cant get a place in the pews... wow!!! n i tink every1 put in a lot of hard work to make it a success... it was a far cry frm wad i had witnessed b4 i left for taiwan for a wk!!! kudos to all the producers n cast n every1 involved in the musical... n now its my job to plan for a celebration cum thanksgiving dinner... hmm... another taskin for me now... :)... n im really glad tt the theme song was so well-received by every1... tink the cast cant get it out of their mind for the time being... haha... mayb nxt time if i really get out of a job... i will try being a lyricist???... haha...
wow... december has been really packed so far... n yday juz finished our carollin session... but this yr it was surprisingly short... cos we split into 3 grps to go to 7 different places... so we ended up at our final stop at abt 10 plus pm... wow... n we had to stay there for abt 1hr or so for the countdown... *n of course not forgettin those who shld be dunked into the pool lah... we MADE SURE they had their share... muahahahahaha*... but this yr i felt extremely tired than usual... so at the last stop after finishin the carollin procedure... i literally took some food n sat down to stone... whilst every1 arnd me was sooo busy wif taking photos... oh wells... guess somehow im not as young as i was b4... haha... old liao lah... :(
n looking forward... this coming sat is the 04S73 BBQ gathering at ECP... yeah!!!... will definitely enjoy myself there... its very seldom tt u do not enjoy urself in the company of 04S73ians... haha... we rock!!! :)... ok... lastly... wld like to wish all a MERRY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

hmm... i tried my hand at writing lyrics again... n here's my work... still looks n sounds a bit unpolished... but i tink its definitely better than the previous times... the inspiration came frm smth ks mentioned in her blog... "回忆是前进的绊脚石"... i modified it a little... so here it goes... its 2 stanzas followed by a prechorus n a chorus...

把自己关在记忆里，
回荡的，只是自己的叹息。
没风，没雨，
重复的，只是你的笑意。

秋风刮碎谁的心，
我问自己，却得不到回应。
说好的永远，
如今却只是一个幻影。

要放手成全你，
是我不想欺骗自己。
而我只能紧握着回忆，

依靠着它下去。

回忆是前进的阻碍，
但我选择停下等待。
期盼乌云满天后，
也许彩虹会再来。

回忆是前进的阻碍，
我却看不见以后的未来。
若你和他能快乐，
我也会活在记忆里，
独自悲哀。

yup... tt's abt it... havent been able to put music to it yet... cos somehow a suitable melody hasn't came to my mind yet... :)

a very nice song frm Guang Liang... title of the song is: 住在遥远的星球

到底是谁的错 狠心得过了头
世界只剩下你 和一个我
穿梭黑夜(和)白昼 你的眼泪淹没整个宇宙
连流星都难过
如果他说 还是爱你
是不是又会走进他的记忆里
拥抱着寂寞 失去所有勇气
如果我说 我保护你
能不能给我为你努力的权力
别让我住在遥远的星球中凝望无助的你在哭泣
(我多么想牵着你 一起远离这个伤心之地不回忆)
他总是没有错 自私这个借口
就算再折磨你 你还有我

tot the lyrics were quite touching... esp the chorus... it sounds very sincere to me... i find tt's wad i like abt guang liang n his songs... his songs r very plain... not too much of music effects... but somehow the sincerity n the feelings r there... :)
and anyway... here's a photobk of the pics i took during my trip to taiwan wif mz, eric n jeremy...
http://www.flickr.com/photos/21316873@N08/

feelin quite frustrated now... cos of a few reasons... firstly, im tryin to come up wif a 3rd stanza for the lyrics of the musical theme song tt im writing for... 2 stanzas n e chorus hav alr come out... but andy says its a bit short n he hopes to hav another stanza at least... n when the inspiration juz doesn't flow... its quite frustrating... but juz for fun's sake, here's the lyrics tt i hav for now:
浪漫十二月，
圣诞十二月。
窗外的温度，
内心的温暖。

寒冷十二月，
孤单十二月。
记忆熟悉的脸，
依旧在面前浮现。

What is Christmas to you?

哦，日记里的回忆，
往往都有悲喜。
世界上的游戏，
谁能预定？
爱在十二月瞬间，
消失在地平线，Oooh…
谁能了解我的心情，
What is Christmas to you?

ok... the music lyrics aside... wad happened in camp for the past 2 days has been really the msot impt factor y im feelin so angry... n a bit betrayed... the situation is like this... left wif no choice, the tk plt has to embark on the 100hr servicing tt we were tryin very hard to avoid... but on account of gary... we decided tt we will help him lessen his workload den by chippin in to help out n do wad we can for 1.5 days... after tt... the remaining tasks will be taken by them... i even told gary tt i wld appreciate it tt he recognises our efforts to help him by coming down to help... after all, our main job there was to help him... but wad eventually happened was... yday he went to report sick... den today after his dental ffi in the morning he had the cheek to clear half day off!!! I mean... if u were one of those sloggin down there tryin ur best to want to help him lessen his workload n this is how u r repaid... how wld u feel??? naturally, I dint feel too happy abt this... so do our guys... n wads more... we r driven like some slaves by the technicians who r makin it a pt to utilise us to the fullest b4 we ORD... i hope tt they can get this clear: everythin we r doin now is a favour towards them, n we do not owe them anything... we can jolly well juz dump everything n not do it at all... but the very fact tt we decided to do some work is deserving of some recognition, not ill-treatment... tt was wad totally pissed me off... the more i write, the worst it becomes... argh!!!

both exciting n demoralising events happen at the same time... let me tolk abt the exciting events first ba... last fri attended my ORD function at Meritus Mandarin... food was ok... took a lot of photos n relived a lot of memories... tho i tink the entertainment segment was a bit erm... lame n crazy in a way... reminded me of my tchs grad nite when they hired this damn wacko crazy entertainer... haha... guess it takes a bit more effort to whip up the mood of a whole bunch of guys ba... n i realised tt i will really miss the pple who hav made these 2 yrs such a gd time tgt... esp those who will be goin overseas to study n thus will probably be re-posted to another reservist unit... but thx for all the fun times, guys... tho a lot of times it wasn't really tt FUN... but with u all arnd it was definitely much more bearable (well... it definitely is better when u hav a few other pple gettin pissed off at the same thing as u do)... oh... n my family trip to taiwan in dec has juz been confirmed yday... a huge grp of 14 pple frm my family... wow... so tt means i will be goin to taiwan twice in 2 mnths... all personal expenses to be borne solely by myself... so tt's another bit of budgetin to do... hmm... guess i cant giv as many treats as i used to liao... n tgt wif the trip also implies tt i hav to change my FTT date... so i will be ps-ing ja... haha... sorry lah... :)
n yeah!!! the script concept n main ideas n content for the yr end church musical has been more or less confirmed... so now we can start penning down the ACTUAL script... n start wif the casting as well (i noe andy has started approachin pple liao)... haha... but i realised tt there r a lot of technicalities tt nd to be sorted out... which mite in a way restrict the script... but nvm... we will make adjustments as n when needed... but sadly i dun tink i can be too heavily involved in other taskings apart frm helping out wif the script n lyrics n mayb a bit of backstage prep... cos my taiwan trip is frm 14-21 dec... n i will only reach s'pore on 22nd early morn... n i juz checked my jc class blog today... n found out tt there is a christmas bbq party at ECP on the same day!!!... oh no... now im faced wif a choice to make again... either i go for the bbq party, or i go n help out wif the musical... by commitment i shld be at the musical, but i do so want to meet up wif my dear fellow 04S73ians as well!!! n dis time i cant possibly go to the bbq after the musical, cos it will be so late by den... sigh... so i guess i will hav to say sorry to my classmates ba... i really wanted to meet up wif u all... but it juz happened to clash... :(
hmm... guess this will be my last entry for some time... cos as of tml... i will not be clearin any further leave n off (courtesy of some silly ORD package organised by my unit)... n tml will hav to go visit discovery centre... WOW!!! but frankly i hav been there quite a no. of times... dunno wad is there to c there... but since they want it... well... no choice... 2 wks left only ma... anything goes lah... juz want to ORD in peace... :)

sigh... made a special trip back to camp today to make another attempt at my IPPT... however, i still failed to get a gold award cos of my 2.4km run timing... tink i clocked 10:22... well... goes to show tt i m showing signs of gettin unfit... heard rumors tt there will be another test nxt wk, but there's no way tt i will be takin it... take it as great effort put in to come back on a BLK LEAVE... i emphasise again: BLK LEAVE... to come and take the test... the other specs r obviously not as pressurised as me, eric n mz... n i dunno the reason for this discrimination... but will not pursue it... cos we r all leavin soon anyway... :)
k-ing wif mz, eric, jeremy n aj was quite fun lah... tho i still dint manage to sing some of the new songs tt i truly like... esp songs frm FIR's new album... like xu yao ni de ai (FIR & SHIN) as well as san ge xin yuan *tt's a very very cute song... told tt to eric n he dint believe me at first... now he's askin me for the song liao... haha*... mayb in a mnth's time they will be up into the system ba... hopefully... :)
n i must seriously stop my procrastination of impt taskings to do... as of now... i still hav a few tasks pending for me:
1) come up wif the script for one of the scenes for the church youth musical to be held end of this yr... this tasking is due this comin sunday... but if we r holding a meeting on sat, den tt means the deadline will be pushed forward to sat... omg...
2) come out wif lyrics for the theme song for the musical... hmm... this is goin to be a bit tough... cos the composer, yaosheng, feels tt he can only come up wif the melody if the lyrics r out... but i wld on the other hand, prefer to hav the melody so tt i can hav a feel of how the lyrics r to be like... whether it is to be more erm... light-hearted? slow n melodramatic? for now, all i hav is a vague memory of the accompaniment tt yaosheng came up wif... n i tink for this musical, since its a christmas musical, the theme song shld be more of the melodramatic type *cos seriously, i cant really imagine a rap song for christmas*... n the accompaniment might not suit the lyrics tt im havin in mind... but for this, tink i will look at the overall script first b4 i write out the lyrics... so tt i can hav a better feel of the whole thing... yup... tt's wad i will do...
3) i still owe auntie nianpei her translation for her guidebk... did up only 1 lesson so far... way way way way behind progress... how???... work lor... no choice... :( but luckily tt one is still quite flexible on the deadline... but even then i dun tink it will be nice to drag it for too long... cos there's still editing to be done after tt...
haiz... juz these 3 taskings will be enuf to keep me occupied for some time... n seriously i dun tink i can do it alone... God, pls help me... i really cannot rely on myself to complete all these taskings... :)

yeah!!! i got my PDL today... its a first step in my driving career... cos i passed the BTT today as well... i guess i was really lucky to get the easier qns among the pool... so i finished my test within 7 min... jian an got slightly more difficult qns... but he also passed in the end... haha... :)... hopefully i can clear my driving tests at first shot... so tt i dun nd to waste extra time n money to retake...
went out to dinner wif pl n low low also... n as usual, low was late...venue was at a steak restaurant somewhere in novena... spent quite some time tolkin abt our plans n other matters... haha... n we realised tt we r really growin old liao... 20 dis yr... 21 the nxt... ;)... but i enjoyed the time we spent tgt... n i promised them tt i will invite them to my bday party nxt yr... haha... yeah!!!

smth to ponder abt... wad i learnt while watchin the movie evan almighty...

a lot of times we pray to God to request for courage n wisdom...
how do u tink God will answer such a prayer?
will he giv u wisdom n courage?
or will he giv u an opportunity to show wisdom n courage?

here's some lyrics i wrote... only got the verse... its not very gd tho... but since its my first attempt, tot tt it will be worthwhile puttin it on my blog...

我独自走在孤单的路上
抬头望，枫叶已片片落下。
想起我们曾一起走过的时光，
现在只剩我一个人感伤。

奢望你还能陪在我身旁，
秋风吹，我身边空空荡荡。
在他身上你找到了幸福吗?
我会含着泪，说我祝福你和他。

felt like writing something... esp in this period when i appear to be extremely free... or mayb im juz relatively more free than others ba... army is comin to an end for me with less than a mnth of service left... *i will publish a reflection of my 2 yrs upon my ORD day, 5th nov*... recently i've been keepin myself busy wif these few activities: chattin online, readin bks, playin my piano (im currently muggin scores frm jay chou's movie, secret... cos somehow tt movie inspired me to want to give more love n attention to my first wife... guess i neglected her too long liao...), watchin movies, seeking out new songs... yup... my life basically revolves arnd these few activities now... spending has been kept to a minimum in view of my upcomin taiwan trip (12th to 16th nov)... n a drivin package (im taking my BTT on 26th oct)... i hope tt i can hav enuf money to tide me thru all these... cos im estimatin tt these activities will deplete at least half my savings *haha... so now u all noe tt im not tt rich after all*... n recently, i hav been approached to help out in my church musical... as a scriptwriter and a lyricist for the theme song... wow... i must admit tt it places a certain stress on me leh... cos i really dunno if i m up to it or not... told ks abt it... n to my surprise she has some experience wif lyrics writing... haha... n we agreed to come up wif a song tgt... yday nite i spent almost 2 hrs tryin to pen out a song... its really hard leh... esp when i ltr realised tt all i was doin was to try to force words to fit into a song... no real meaning to it... empty whining... :(... so i guess i nd to work on it liao... haha...
things hav changed since the past few mnths... n one of the issues tt surfaced was wif regards to my KAP pact buddy, minz... since quite long ago, she has voiced out her desire to change church, or to visit other churches, cos she feels tt she cant grow n mature the way she wants wif CLPC... but every time she brings out tt issue in our discussions... ks n i will always try to persuade her to change her mind... after all, she has been in this church since a child... n we really dun wish to c her go... esp now tt we r so tied-up wif our stuff tt we hardly get to tolk... wad more if she goes to another church... but for these past few wks, she has decided to act upon her wish... erm... i actually tot thru abt it... n frankly, tho most pple in church object to her decision, i tink tt as a fren i shld giv her my support... cos to me, minz has always known wad she wanted... she's got an extremely clear mind(which is also y i always cant argue wif her, cos halfway thru i get confused)... n if this is wad she feels will benefit her the most, den mayb we shldn't try to restrain her here... tt's my pt... but juz rmb to meet up wif us often... k???
some memories of the past hav been surfacin recently... n there r some things tt i went thru but i dun wish for my frens to go thru it as well... tt's y there r some things tt i really keep to myself... im sorry... :(

Revival...

Welcome to my humble home!!! i decided to start a new blog... cos i felt tt the old one was a bit too sian liao... i will only keep tt for memory sake, but frm now on... http://whitesandscoop.blogspot.com is useless... instead... im now on angelwings... haha... sounds optimistic... GD!!!... in my old blog i spent a lot of time doin meaningless ranting... but for this blog i hope tt this wont be the case... i will be puttin in a lot of more exciting stuff... like music videos (not of myself of course... but songs tt i like)... but of course u guys still hav to put up wif some of my ranting... haha... but i promise tt it wont sound tt boring... so i hope to hav a new start!!! Enjoy!!! :)