feelin quite frustrated now... cos of a few reasons... firstly, im tryin to come up wif a 3rd stanza for the lyrics of the musical theme song tt im writing for... 2 stanzas n e chorus hav alr come out... but andy says its a bit short n he hopes to hav another stanza at least... n when the inspiration juz doesn't flow... its quite frustrating... but juz for fun's sake, here's the lyrics tt i hav for now:
浪漫十二月，
圣诞十二月。
窗外的温度，
内心的温暖。

寒冷十二月，
孤单十二月。
记忆熟悉的脸，
依旧在面前浮现。

What is Christmas to you?

哦，日记里的回忆，
往往都有悲喜。
世界上的游戏，
谁能预定？
爱在十二月瞬间，
消失在地平线，Oooh…
谁能了解我的心情，
What is Christmas to you?

ok... the music lyrics aside... wad happened in camp for the past 2 days has been really the msot impt factor y im feelin so angry... n a bit betrayed... the situation is like this... left wif no choice, the tk plt has to embark on the 100hr servicing tt we were tryin very hard to avoid... but on account of gary... we decided tt we will help him lessen his workload den by chippin in to help out n do wad we can for 1.5 days... after tt... the remaining tasks will be taken by them... i even told gary tt i wld appreciate it tt he recognises our efforts to help him by coming down to help... after all, our main job there was to help him... but wad eventually happened was... yday he went to report sick... den today after his dental ffi in the morning he had the cheek to clear half day off!!! I mean... if u were one of those sloggin down there tryin ur best to want to help him lessen his workload n this is how u r repaid... how wld u feel??? naturally, I dint feel too happy abt this... so do our guys... n wads more... we r driven like some slaves by the technicians who r makin it a pt to utilise us to the fullest b4 we ORD... i hope tt they can get this clear: everythin we r doin now is a favour towards them, n we do not owe them anything... we can jolly well juz dump everything n not do it at all... but the very fact tt we decided to do some work is deserving of some recognition, not ill-treatment... tt was wad totally pissed me off... the more i write, the worst it becomes... argh!!!

both exciting n demoralising events happen at the same time... let me tolk abt the exciting events first ba... last fri attended my ORD function at Meritus Mandarin... food was ok... took a lot of photos n relived a lot of memories... tho i tink the entertainment segment was a bit erm... lame n crazy in a way... reminded me of my tchs grad nite when they hired this damn wacko crazy entertainer... haha... guess it takes a bit more effort to whip up the mood of a whole bunch of guys ba... n i realised tt i will really miss the pple who hav made these 2 yrs such a gd time tgt... esp those who will be goin overseas to study n thus will probably be re-posted to another reservist unit... but thx for all the fun times, guys... tho a lot of times it wasn't really tt FUN... but with u all arnd it was definitely much more bearable (well... it definitely is better when u hav a few other pple gettin pissed off at the same thing as u do)... oh... n my family trip to taiwan in dec has juz been confirmed yday... a huge grp of 14 pple frm my family... wow... so tt means i will be goin to taiwan twice in 2 mnths... all personal expenses to be borne solely by myself... so tt's another bit of budgetin to do... hmm... guess i cant giv as many treats as i used to liao... n tgt wif the trip also implies tt i hav to change my FTT date... so i will be ps-ing ja... haha... sorry lah... :)
n yeah!!! the script concept n main ideas n content for the yr end church musical has been more or less confirmed... so now we can start penning down the ACTUAL script... n start wif the casting as well (i noe andy has started approachin pple liao)... haha... but i realised tt there r a lot of technicalities tt nd to be sorted out... which mite in a way restrict the script... but nvm... we will make adjustments as n when needed... but sadly i dun tink i can be too heavily involved in other taskings apart frm helping out wif the script n lyrics n mayb a bit of backstage prep... cos my taiwan trip is frm 14-21 dec... n i will only reach s'pore on 22nd early morn... n i juz checked my jc class blog today... n found out tt there is a christmas bbq party at ECP on the same day!!!... oh no... now im faced wif a choice to make again... either i go for the bbq party, or i go n help out wif the musical... by commitment i shld be at the musical, but i do so want to meet up wif my dear fellow 04S73ians as well!!! n dis time i cant possibly go to the bbq after the musical, cos it will be so late by den... sigh... so i guess i will hav to say sorry to my classmates ba... i really wanted to meet up wif u all... but it juz happened to clash... :(
hmm... guess this will be my last entry for some time... cos as of tml... i will not be clearin any further leave n off (courtesy of some silly ORD package organised by my unit)... n tml will hav to go visit discovery centre... WOW!!! but frankly i hav been there quite a no. of times... dunno wad is there to c there... but since they want it... well... no choice... 2 wks left only ma... anything goes lah... juz want to ORD in peace... :)

sigh... made a special trip back to camp today to make another attempt at my IPPT... however, i still failed to get a gold award cos of my 2.4km run timing... tink i clocked 10:22... well... goes to show tt i m showing signs of gettin unfit... heard rumors tt there will be another test nxt wk, but there's no way tt i will be takin it... take it as great effort put in to come back on a BLK LEAVE... i emphasise again: BLK LEAVE... to come and take the test... the other specs r obviously not as pressurised as me, eric n mz... n i dunno the reason for this discrimination... but will not pursue it... cos we r all leavin soon anyway... :)
k-ing wif mz, eric, jeremy n aj was quite fun lah... tho i still dint manage to sing some of the new songs tt i truly like... esp songs frm FIR's new album... like xu yao ni de ai (FIR & SHIN) as well as san ge xin yuan *tt's a very very cute song... told tt to eric n he dint believe me at first... now he's askin me for the song liao... haha*... mayb in a mnth's time they will be up into the system ba... hopefully... :)
n i must seriously stop my procrastination of impt taskings to do... as of now... i still hav a few tasks pending for me:
1) come up wif the script for one of the scenes for the church youth musical to be held end of this yr... this tasking is due this comin sunday... but if we r holding a meeting on sat, den tt means the deadline will be pushed forward to sat... omg...
2) come out wif lyrics for the theme song for the musical... hmm... this is goin to be a bit tough... cos the composer, yaosheng, feels tt he can only come up wif the melody if the lyrics r out... but i wld on the other hand, prefer to hav the melody so tt i can hav a feel of how the lyrics r to be like... whether it is to be more erm... light-hearted? slow n melodramatic? for now, all i hav is a vague memory of the accompaniment tt yaosheng came up wif... n i tink for this musical, since its a christmas musical, the theme song shld be more of the melodramatic type *cos seriously, i cant really imagine a rap song for christmas*... n the accompaniment might not suit the lyrics tt im havin in mind... but for this, tink i will look at the overall script first b4 i write out the lyrics... so tt i can hav a better feel of the whole thing... yup... tt's wad i will do...
3) i still owe auntie nianpei her translation for her guidebk... did up only 1 lesson so far... way way way way behind progress... how???... work lor... no choice... :( but luckily tt one is still quite flexible on the deadline... but even then i dun tink it will be nice to drag it for too long... cos there's still editing to be done after tt...
haiz... juz these 3 taskings will be enuf to keep me occupied for some time... n seriously i dun tink i can do it alone... God, pls help me... i really cannot rely on myself to complete all these taskings... :)

yeah!!! i got my PDL today... its a first step in my driving career... cos i passed the BTT today as well... i guess i was really lucky to get the easier qns among the pool... so i finished my test within 7 min... jian an got slightly more difficult qns... but he also passed in the end... haha... :)... hopefully i can clear my driving tests at first shot... so tt i dun nd to waste extra time n money to retake...
went out to dinner wif pl n low low also... n as usual, low was late...venue was at a steak restaurant somewhere in novena... spent quite some time tolkin abt our plans n other matters... haha... n we realised tt we r really growin old liao... 20 dis yr... 21 the nxt... ;)... but i enjoyed the time we spent tgt... n i promised them tt i will invite them to my bday party nxt yr... haha... yeah!!!

smth to ponder abt... wad i learnt while watchin the movie evan almighty...

a lot of times we pray to God to request for courage n wisdom...
how do u tink God will answer such a prayer?
will he giv u wisdom n courage?
or will he giv u an opportunity to show wisdom n courage?

here's some lyrics i wrote... only got the verse... its not very gd tho... but since its my first attempt, tot tt it will be worthwhile puttin it on my blog...

我独自走在孤单的路上
抬头望，枫叶已片片落下。
想起我们曾一起走过的时光，
现在只剩我一个人感伤。

奢望你还能陪在我身旁，
秋风吹，我身边空空荡荡。
在他身上你找到了幸福吗?
我会含着泪，说我祝福你和他。

felt like writing something... esp in this period when i appear to be extremely free... or mayb im juz relatively more free than others ba... army is comin to an end for me with less than a mnth of service left... *i will publish a reflection of my 2 yrs upon my ORD day, 5th nov*... recently i've been keepin myself busy wif these few activities: chattin online, readin bks, playin my piano (im currently muggin scores frm jay chou's movie, secret... cos somehow tt movie inspired me to want to give more love n attention to my first wife... guess i neglected her too long liao...), watchin movies, seeking out new songs... yup... my life basically revolves arnd these few activities now... spending has been kept to a minimum in view of my upcomin taiwan trip (12th to 16th nov)... n a drivin package (im taking my BTT on 26th oct)... i hope tt i can hav enuf money to tide me thru all these... cos im estimatin tt these activities will deplete at least half my savings *haha... so now u all noe tt im not tt rich after all*... n recently, i hav been approached to help out in my church musical... as a scriptwriter and a lyricist for the theme song... wow... i must admit tt it places a certain stress on me leh... cos i really dunno if i m up to it or not... told ks abt it... n to my surprise she has some experience wif lyrics writing... haha... n we agreed to come up wif a song tgt... yday nite i spent almost 2 hrs tryin to pen out a song... its really hard leh... esp when i ltr realised tt all i was doin was to try to force words to fit into a song... no real meaning to it... empty whining... :(... so i guess i nd to work on it liao... haha...
things hav changed since the past few mnths... n one of the issues tt surfaced was wif regards to my KAP pact buddy, minz... since quite long ago, she has voiced out her desire to change church, or to visit other churches, cos she feels tt she cant grow n mature the way she wants wif CLPC... but every time she brings out tt issue in our discussions... ks n i will always try to persuade her to change her mind... after all, she has been in this church since a child... n we really dun wish to c her go... esp now tt we r so tied-up wif our stuff tt we hardly get to tolk... wad more if she goes to another church... but for these past few wks, she has decided to act upon her wish... erm... i actually tot thru abt it... n frankly, tho most pple in church object to her decision, i tink tt as a fren i shld giv her my support... cos to me, minz has always known wad she wanted... she's got an extremely clear mind(which is also y i always cant argue wif her, cos halfway thru i get confused)... n if this is wad she feels will benefit her the most, den mayb we shldn't try to restrain her here... tt's my pt... but juz rmb to meet up wif us often... k???
some memories of the past hav been surfacin recently... n there r some things tt i went thru but i dun wish for my frens to go thru it as well... tt's y there r some things tt i really keep to myself... im sorry... :(