felt like writing something... esp in this period when i appear to be extremely free... or mayb im juz relatively more free than others ba... army is comin to an end for me with less than a mnth of service left... *i will publish a reflection of my 2 yrs upon my ORD day, 5th nov*... recently i've been keepin myself busy wif these few activities: chattin online, readin bks, playin my piano (im currently muggin scores frm jay chou's movie, secret... cos somehow tt movie inspired me to want to give more love n attention to my first wife... guess i neglected her too long liao...), watchin movies, seeking out new songs... yup... my life basically revolves arnd these few activities now... spending has been kept to a minimum in view of my upcomin taiwan trip (12th to 16th nov)... n a drivin package (im taking my BTT on 26th oct)... i hope tt i can hav enuf money to tide me thru all these... cos im estimatin tt these activities will deplete at least half my savings *haha... so now u all noe tt im not tt rich after all*... n recently, i hav been approached to help out in my church musical... as a scriptwriter and a lyricist for the theme song... wow... i must admit tt it places a certain stress on me leh... cos i really dunno if i m up to it or not... told ks abt it... n to my surprise she has some experience wif lyrics writing... haha... n we agreed to come up wif a song tgt... yday nite i spent almost 2 hrs tryin to pen out a song... its really hard leh... esp when i ltr realised tt all i was doin was to try to force words to fit into a song... no real meaning to it... empty whining... :(... so i guess i nd to work on it liao... haha...
things hav changed since the past few mnths... n one of the issues tt surfaced was wif regards to my KAP pact buddy, minz... since quite long ago, she has voiced out her desire to change church, or to visit other churches, cos she feels tt she cant grow n mature the way she wants wif CLPC... but every time she brings out tt issue in our discussions... ks n i will always try to persuade her to change her mind... after all, she has been in this church since a child... n we really dun wish to c her go... esp now tt we r so tied-up wif our stuff tt we hardly get to tolk... wad more if she goes to another church... but for these past few wks, she has decided to act upon her wish... erm... i actually tot thru abt it... n frankly, tho most pple in church object to her decision, i tink tt as a fren i shld giv her my support... cos to me, minz has always known wad she wanted... she's got an extremely clear mind(which is also y i always cant argue wif her, cos halfway thru i get confused)... n if this is wad she feels will benefit her the most, den mayb we shldn't try to restrain her here... tt's my pt... but juz rmb to meet up wif us often... k???
some memories of the past hav been surfacin recently... n there r some things tt i went thru but i dun wish for my frens to go thru it as well... tt's y there r some things tt i really keep to myself... im sorry... :(